tis is so stress...any1 help me plz...

i feel so stress
i wan to do well but i m afraid that when i study too hard, during the actual dae of exam, i will break down lohz...
tell me how?
then i also scared that i carn study finish all tt m suppose to study.
i also wana keep my 1st place in geog...but so many ppl catching up w me.
its lyk...compertition amongs frens.
i really dun wan tis kinda compertition to xsist loh...
but i carn help it lohz.
its lyk...we were frens but then i m compiting w u lyk enermies.
i duno y but i think bcuz of results and tis kinda competition, frens bcame enermies.
good xample is geraldine n fiona n me.
we were "close" friends but now we are "enermies"
at least its fiona and geraldine
me n geraldine.
really dun understand lohz.
how studies n grades can actually affect frendship.
lyk jas n i also.
its lyk we r drifting apart.
sumre...she is going to usa.its lyk its going to b further apart.
she got so many frens now that she tok to them mre offten then to me.
kinda jealous but i noe she still treads me as her fren.
its juz tt we r too buzy liao...that we dun tok to each other tt often le.
i duno lahz...
i juz dun feel tt rite...sumre tis is 'o' level yr.
mre stress.
haiz...i duno noe lohz...
any1 help me...
give me sum help
plzplzplzplz
tknx...
take care n God bless

yoz ppl...
so sian...caroline hse is last...for the last 3 yrs n 4 mths in stc, caroline hse, it was nv last...so saddening. anyways...todae trng so fun...so so so much fun...!!!u noe what, having game tmr...i so sian lohz...so much to study...wana keep my 1st place in geog till "o" level is over...do u think i can?its lyk every1 studying so so hard...then i so slack here lohz. i so wana study but i so got no mood. how i wish...really really wish that i can xcell in maths n science n keep my place 4 geog. its really not easy at all lohz...
now, to think that i am going to graduate tis yr, i really dun wan to. its lyk...4yrs pass so fast. really love the good old times i have w my friends. now we go on our own ways. its lyk the song....at the beginning.

we were strangers starting out on a journey
nv dreaming what we'd have to go through
now here we are and i'm suddently standing
at the beginning w u


update again...going to do things...cumin bk ltr

hey...to all those hu always read my bloggy!!!!

its been a long long time ever since i last blogged...hahaxz...really got no time...life in sec 4 is so hard that i wana die.!!!still, i managed to go to church(hopefully every sundae) dame sick of studying now. at the thought that there will be a SA1 and it will be tested on the whole of sec 3 and sec 4 work!!!!!*pissed!!!*to add on to everything, i think ppl surrounding me is getting lamer n lamer and more childish...carn stand it lohz...even my parents!haiz...life is so tut!!!!

its raining outside now...does it symbolises that i will be crying soon? or it is trying to sae that after the rain everything will be back to normal? i hate this kinda inter-family arguments...!!!*sick*then both parents will cum tok tok tok nag nag nag at me...wa lao...will die lohz.

haiz...so many things is bothering me...hate it so much. to add on, the two phycos bside me all the time...argh...hate it hate it!!!! i wana c her...wana tok to her!!!plz be soon!!!!

take care and God bless